Nights like these when Lana doesn’t want to sleep, she’s in pain and doesn’t want anything, I really hate her dad.
I never have a break from any of this, I feel like in failing Lana because I can’t make her feel better.
I’m just feeling really low with everything. I think I need to go to the hospital
Lana has been crying for three hours straight and nothing I do is working
I’m so over today
I want to cry and jump off of a fucking cliff
I really just want to break down and cry but I can’t
I’m so overwhelmed right now, everything I do is never good enough…
My mom told me she’s tired of me, I’m always trying but she doesn’t care.
I m packing Lana’s clothes and we’re leaving.
I have money saved, but it’s not enough, I want it to be nice and it’s so frustrating because he should be the one helping me. But he doesn’t care about Lana, he probably doesn’t even know her birthday is in a month …
I’ve decided I’m not going to have Lana’s first party here, I don’t even know of I’m going to give her a party at all.
It sucks because I can’t even afford it and I’m refusing to ask anyone for help because she’s my daughter.
Out of all the crazy shit I’ve done you’d think they give me life…..but instead god gave me someone to give my life to❤️
Thank you, we’re going to do that